Whenever I feel horrible, I don’t ever tell anyone. I’ve only broken down in front of one person (not anymore) and I never intend on doing that again. The only thing I’d hate worse than feeling like this is burdening someone else with it (while making myself vulnerable at the same time).

It’s not at all as though I think asking for help burdens another; I enjoy being there for anyone. But I have never expected anyone to do that for me and I can’t even imagine feeling like that would be okay. I know this is foolish of me. I am a very foolish person.